爱的不放弃，放弃不爱的

Sometimes, I get so obsessed about a person that I forget to step back and look at it..

Never give up on what you love but we should let go of people that don't love us. To love and be persistent on what we believe is very important in maintaining a relationship, just like trusting ur other half, never give up easily no matter what happen.. however, that is provided the other person loves us as well.. It is always this part that I get stuck, i get too obsessed about people whom I like, and tend to forget if it is worth it and if it makes the other feel bad as well.. I mean it is not others fault that they don't like us, feeling is just too subjective. It is useless and pointless to hope other love us, when they just don't feel it. Step back and think, there are actually much more things that is worth our time to persue.. at least a person who like us, isn't better to spend time and effort to treasure this person..?

Sometimes i really need someone to hit me real hard on my head to see it, i am too easily obsessed on things... and too emotional.. Can I blame that on Sagitarius?


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追 (zhui) - To Persue

Coincidently, today ( at the time I blog ) it is 1st April... There are still a lot of things that is worth us persuing, like 哥哥 say, dedicate every minute and every second to persue the right one...

What can I say?

I was really really really tired this morning when i came back from work (only 2 hours since sunday noon till now) , then i got this message...

"My mom's plan is ready for upgrade anytime, but it will cost 618 (sgd) for her plan"

*not the original message but something like that*

And i just feel like, let me sleep, i am too tired to take on any extra mental dissapoinment...

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What happen was I used my plan to get an iPhone for Someone last time. He did promise me he will used his mom or his plan to get my phone next time i need. I am not regretting nor complaining as I know at that time, i am just happy i can do that for him. Honest..

but well... things go on and i actually never thought so much about using his plan, i mean it is awkward right? but then the last time we met, he was asking why i bought my phone without a plan and i should use his or his mom's and he even say his mom was asking if i need the phone.. so later on I kinda thought maybe i can get for my brother, i wanted to surprise him as I know he will like it a lot..

So it was fixed up and I am suppose to be getting it recently. and that came the message... the phone i got for him cost 368, which was the price at that time with only 1 company selling. Now it has competition and the price has fallen to 248 for the same kind of price plan. I was indeed concern that his mom doesn't need a data plan but last time he told me his mom is thinking of upgrading to more talk time so the price shud be cheaper too for the phone...

But now.. 618... it is really much different than I expect to pay. Not that i cannot afford, but jsut for now, I need to consider my brother's school fee coming soon.. so i am really not sure if i shud spend like this.. 400 difference.. it is almost 900 in malaysia.. to be honest, mostly i just feel really dissapointed cause there goes my surprise for my brother, which i really wanted to give him.. and also, i never really thought he cud still dissapoint me...

well what can i say, its not his fault his mom is not upgrading her plan, and she shouldn't have to upgrade just to get a cheaper phone for some stranger either. But just.. sometimes i feel like you shudn't give someone hope and crush it, it hurts a lot when you are looking forward so much and realize it is not going to happen... why give so much of uncertain promise? Why...

I am seriously in trouble..

My sleeping record:

Fri: 9am to 5pm = 8 hours
Sat: - = 0 hours
Sun: 5am to 12pm = 7 hours
Mon: 4am to 6am = 2 hours

I really feel if there is going to be a first time I faint, its gonna be tonite...

5he feeling is awful, when u r extremely fatigue..

Dare to dream?

Everything begin from a first step, and most of the time, we need courage and faith, to take the first step...

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She hasn't got a stunning face, nor a die-for model body, she doesn't know any musical instrument but she likes to sing. And she likes to hum and note down the musical notes that came to her and patch them to become a song...

With that, she join a competition that seeks a Superstar... this is where her journey starts. And now, basically people around the world (at least the chinese) who watch youtube, knows her name.. She took a step where many would have doubted and suceeded herself

If you know her, you know her, else just listen to the song produce all by herself and see if she is worth knowing...

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It so happens this song is about the courage to seek love. It starts from believing one's own feeling, and from there venture ahead, even if there are pain, even if there are doubts, even if there are a million obstacles, it is about not giving up. Believing the person is worth it and going ahead, and give all in without any reserve...

Sometimes it is good to listen to positive songs, who would have a smooth relationship? who never fell and got hurt, in fact so many have even started to protect oneself more than necesary, lost the courage to believe anymore.. I still believe i made a right choice, what's left is a little game of fate...

Ironman

Not exactly the Marvel Superhero, but i was kinda using it to describe a chinese word "Tie Ren" which translate into Ironman.

So what makes me an Ironman for today, yup, me.. (I know, i dun have the pacs but this is my blog!) Anyway, I was proud/amazed/shocked to realize I actually havent been sleeping for the past 30+ hours. Not just the do-nothing kind of continuos non-sleep, but rather, I went for my usual nite shift, came back from work in the neext morning trying to get some sleep but cudn't cause we will be moving our house at noon and I was expecting it. So being a light leeper I cudn't cloe my eyes at all and thus just went on the 9-hour continuous house shifting. We have to shift the girl's wardrobe, the shoe cupboard, couple of beds, and ... I am so blank now i really cannot remember...

All i know now is I feel achings all over my body parts and I feel like falling apart... this is soooooo-tiring.... I deserved to be iron man for a day right, 32 hours non-stop no sleep!!

but half dead now...

我等你

It has been a while since I posted some new songs. In fact, i think i have been posting some same songs when I was in the mood though with different stories..

This song came to my mind out of no where today. Well, not exactly out of no where, probably somewhere there in my mind. I wanted to post this song since "2 months and 28 days". But at that point, I was still optimistic towards it..



The song 我等你 (wo deng ni) - " I wait for you" or in a more literal meaning, it means i am willing to wait for you. But in the lyrics,

"我等你半年为期, 逾期就狠狠把你忘记"
"..I will wait for you, the deadline is half a year, after which I will determinedly forget about you, every single thing about you..."

so I didn't want Someone to misunderstood the meaning at that time. But well, it is a really nice and soothing song for a broken relationship.

I guess it is very true to say there is nothing time cannot heal. Even when you cry, I still believe, tears carry your sadness, so everytime you cry, you loose a little, and someday, it will all be washed away... And however strong a relationship is, when problem surface and you are force to let go, you will realize that no matter how reluctant you are to let the other go, there is a limit to how long you are willing to wait. Just as the song says, half a year, 1 year, 2 years, but feeling fades, even the memory is strong, the feeling will never be the same. A good case is when you can still be friend, cause both try to limit the harm, worse case is you will hate each other and only remember the bad things. But which ever it is, You will never feel that you still want to be together again.

Although time heals but the scar will be there, forever...

We wait, because we still have faith, but patience is pulling us from the other end.. So if there is someone you feel right, never let him wait, it will only lead to regret, when the the waiting time passed..

我.等.你

Listening

If words spoken can be solidify like thought bubbles in comics, this big city small island will definitely become a Hazy place...

Sitting at toastbox yesterday evening, I suddenly realize that i have never seen "peace and quiet" in day time in Singapore through my four years, no matter where or when, be it ulu as NTU, it will always have someone around, talking about soemthing. I mean when i was back at home, a usual afternoon, my house will be so quiet that I have to on my TV to make it feel alive, unlike here, you would wish there is a switch to shut the noises around. Not-gonna happen of course...

Well since you can't shut it, why not just open up ur ears and listen? which is what I did, not that I am eavesdropping, it's just they are speaking too loud and physics law says sound wave will propagate in air... etc etc, so if they didn't want others to hear, they wudn't have spoken in public right? Right, of course. Sometimes being a little attentive can be interesting, i mean all the interesting I observe and heard from Toastbox, I remember I once say maybe i can write up a page on Evening at Toastbox, like the annoying kid, the young lady with old man couple, the bullsh_t guy showing off in front of girls (plain naive), and also my favourite waitress at Toastbox, I would rank her top 3 best customer service in Singapore (I mean honestly, you can feel her dedication very sincerely, if i am the store owner i would promote her as store manager when she qualifies) etc etc... Not just that, sometimes in office, opening up ur ears a little can prepare you for surprises that may or may not favour you...

Not that I like, but I really can't help noticing the noises, talkings around. It is just a never-quiet-city I am living in (okay, plus i am the kind who is a little nosy, just that little), so I usually pay attention to what others say if they look "interesing" .. Seriously, it trains your analysing and summarizing ability to process information quickly in your mind.

So listen around, you never know what surprise you might get, it is "free" afterall...