1st Anniversary

Thanks for bearing with my less-than-mature act today.

I keep on insisting to meet up even i knew you are occupied by your work. I know you probably mind we get spotted, which is why you tell me to meet at the MRT station. *I maybe a bit stubborn sometimes but I know my limits =) . I know you feel today is ridiculous, that why I insist on seeing you, it is just a present. But it really meant a lot to me. This is my first ever 1st anniversary with someone. Although I know you probably don't feel so much, as you have said, you don't really feel we are in a bf-bf kind of relationship. So technically it doesn't count as our 1st anniversary. But you probably cannot deny that we first met at this date, 23rd December 2009. It was only a met up but we have already felt "This is the person I won't want to miss" (at least back then it was like that). And in someway, you haven't break up with me, so we are still together in someway.

I remember you like the perfume, you once told me, and i remember. The perfume is also for modern men, which i feel really suits you. Professional with a touch of young and style, the muskiness and citrusy aroma. Furthermore it won the Men's Health choice of Perfume for the year. So it is just your kind of things :)

Seeing you still stir up many feelings. In someway, it makes me see more differences between us, like how I know myself still long for the kind of possesive, passionate love. But I can feel you are at a different level, you seek mature, independent in your partner. Someone who deosn't exhaust you for attention. But I am just not there yet... I still havent experience the kind of relationship that you are crazily in love with someone and so is the other crazy about you. I still like the kind of passionate, silly things as couple can do together. I am really not at your level yet...

But on the other hand, every little thing that you do, i still cannot ignore it, like how tired you are, every single message, call makes my heartbeat increase...

I really don't know what's next, i really don't know.. Because I know you and me, we both wont give way...

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