Promotion!!!

I know I shop quite a bit, but by promotion here I don't mean buy 1 get 1. I mean Job promotion!!!

Okay, its not exactly a big deal, cause someone else from our team (of about 30) has already gotten this, but that was because they were kinda "asking" the manager about it. Whereas ours came as a surprise during our weekly meeting with our US managers. But we all agree that eventually eveyrone will be promoted as a 1 year completion of the program.

Anyway, hearing this "Congratulations, you have been promoted to..." from my boss for the first time in my whole life still kinda gives me the thrill!!! ^^ i feel like screaming, Yes! Yes! Yes!... Woohooo!!!!

Though they didn't mention bout pay raise but hopefully next march when they are doing the review? Though it's not so hopeful on one hand, like they just laid off 10% of the US workforce.. which means... those money will come to us? Yes! It has to be...

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Hard Rock Cafe @ New York Times Square..

Up-Down and Up Again

For a friend, let it hit hard this time, learned from it, and move on, always a worthy someone ahead.. like u always tell me to believe..

KL - A Variety? (guys of course)

Apart from the main mission to see my bro during the KL trip, there were some extra gains too, well merely viewing pleasure but still, I hardly stay in KL, so its pretty eye-opening.

I stay in Cititel for a night, so naturally Mid-Valley megamall was where we spend most of the time. And on a side note, Topman is officially a gay shop to me now, world wide (I have only seen New York, SG, KL but good enough to reach that conclusion). So anyway, I kinda notice that KL guys, gay guys to be precise, kinda comes in a wider variety. Its merely a feeling, I mean from my one day stay there, but it just feel different from Singapore. Singapore gay guys in general comes in 2 category, the tanned, muscular, gym-toned, short haired, immaculately dressed which most of the time good to look but gives out an intimidating and distant feeling unless you are in the same league- non-so-approachable. Second kind, feminish. Just personal preference, no offence, I am not particular interested in this group but its pretty obvious in the gay scene they make up quite a group.

Okay, the point here is they kinda go to extreme ends, its like competition or peer pressure kinda push people to groom themselves to the best in their category, and make them all very similar, yet similarly unapproachable. Like too good to be real. Wheares in KL, i notice there are many that feels "REAL". Yup, they are gays, Obviously, they can even be handsome, good looking, cute in their very own more-natiural way. That is to say not extremely 6-packish or has a smooth-like-porcelain face which u know credits goes to SK-II and dress up in million-dollar labels (or maybe NUM label). They kinda comes in a wider range like, attire: good to say gay but not scream LOUD or overly posh, face: no make up or concealer, hair: all sorts, not just army-short or taiwanese-idolish etc. etc... They are more like real people and gives u the impression, "hey, I might have chance" kind of feeling..

I am not sure if this could just be an illusion or after all these years, I still couldn't mix into the local well... but to be frank, malaysian still feels more down to earth... dont they?

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Okay, it has been all talk and pretty subjective.. Now, example of Real-Approachable-Down-to-earth kind of lengzai, born and breed in Malaysia lengzai-town - Ipoh

Times Square @ New York... gosh, i still miss it..

Double hot chocolate

Okay, its suppose to be hot double chocolate, but i was so confident cause i bought it like just yesterday that i spilled the name out without a second thought and it was so embarassing when the coffee bean lady was laughing and correcting me... *blush*

Anyway, things at least seems fine for now, though really depends on like 2 weeks from now but finger cross.. i can only hope for best. But still, something my mom told me when my bro wasn't around make me feel that this trip was totally worth it.

(in mandarin, but translated..)

Mom: You know, i was so worried that night when ur bro cried so hard, like he cannot control even himself..

Me: yea, mom i was worried too, do you remember when was the last time he cry?

(mom shook her head, obviously my bro really dun cry much)

Mom: but luckily you decided to come back, u know he was so gloomy all day, didnt talk much, and until you say u want to come to kl too he looks better, then that morning when we r packing he (my bro) was even humming a song!
(mom does look relief saying this)

Well, not just mom, i was relief too when we parted, for one, i guess it wasnt as bad as he imagined and secondly, i guess although it was short, it was a rather pleasant trip.. (well money can buy a little happiness i guess.. but o well..) and we were with him to check the results, some moral support and reasurance i guess?

still hoping for the best in 2 weeks time.. finger crossed..

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Last time was starbuck black coffee and dan brown's lost symbol. This time round is my 'double hot chocolate' and Lauren Weisberger's Chasing Harry Winston. Huh? Who? well, you'r probably more familiar with 'the devil wears prada' ? I definitely am..

Bad Day just Got Worse

When I wrote the blog on a bad day, i really thought that's about it for a day. But as a chinese saying goes, plans can never catch up with changes. Who would have thought I am gonna hit by another wave that totally makes me feel so helpless, in fact to a point I am worried too... but yet, I have to act as if nothing happened and say "Dun worry, We are all here for you, dun cry.."

A person whom I couldn't remember when was the last time I saw him cry, has broke down on the phone. It realy scares me... For a moment, it did makes me feel upset because it seems like my plan to further study could have been affected. But then again, he is my only brother, and it is not like money is really that important, not that I need to save for a flat, save up for a marriage. study plans can always wait I suppose. And I guess an advantage being gay, you have minimal doubts when splashing on your only family members, wat's urs is urs...

So much for the weekend plans... well, seeing KL for a night isn't that bad i guess?

Hectic weekend here it goes!

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Still a Bad day...




Will I have a romance like this if I survive this?

The Karma Cycle

Break a heart, heart broken, break another heart, heart get tossed around, pounded, thrashed, stabbed and broken into million pieces... and then tomorrow, here we go again. I call it, the Karma Cycle.

Actually, maybe I should call it the Gay Karma Cycle...

No matter how hard you try to avoid, but somehow your heart seems to be sending signal that he is not the one... heart broken. It just seems to go around and around, it is painful, all the more you feel guilty, when someone falls for you but you know you couldn't accept... and then Deja Vu, the next thing you know, you are getting urself drunk over a guy who tell you he doesn't see a future with you..

It's just not meant to be... whoever invented this line should be hanged, you gave reason for people to give up... and countless broken heart. I never want to hear this line again, I really wish I never have to...

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Hardly a good day...



I am not greedy, either the one who can paint or the one who can play piano would do...

Vain vs Real

What type of guys do you like?

Not an uncommon question to get (or we might be the one asking) if meeting people online is the way we get to know gay friends.

We always have our fantasy of a guy who has a looks, build, charm that satisfy our physical fantasy, say we call them Handsome. But apart from that, there is also another kind of quality we seek which is the personality that loves you, adores you, kind, protective and most importantly understands you, the kind of ideal Prince guys. And just a note, looks are subjectives, so is the personality, I am just saying in general, which means everyone has a different image of their Handsome and Prince.

In our dream of course we always want both, which is a Handsome Prince. But we know Handsome Prince is more like the story where a person is asked to picked a big rock from a field and keep believing there will be bigger one in front until he reaches the other end of it EMPTY-HANDED.

So in reality, if we are lucky, we probably might end up with one, either the Handsome or the Prince. Handsome, meaning we adores them (mostly because of the look), prince of course the other way round. Which do you think is more important? One that your heart tells you that you will love him and stay loyal to him or the other that you know very well that you enjoy his sincerity and you know he is reliable, except your heart probably will sway from time to time another Handsome comes by your life until one day, maybe you are truly convinced you are happy with your Prince. (Is that even possible?)

It is totally a problem of being vain and being real, and your heart struggling to convinced yourself that you knew one is better than the other, but which one?

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One Bryant Park - The place where I probably will be working if I am employed in New York. It's literally a stone throw away from Time Square, like you can throw a stone and really hit some tourist having coffee out there on the street...

I WANT TO WORK THERE!!!