Just the way you are

Recently Will's hubby make a little comment on my choice of guys when i kind of talk about boyfriends. We speak in canto so i am having a bit of trouble trying to pull out the original chat but generally he meant to say i was picky, some guys i met previously i find them too femminish, looks, build etc. etc.

Which is only partially true. Being not a body building fan myself, i exercise mainly to keep in acceptable shape and also because a big part due to I am still single.. (need to maintain the market value) thus i wont really aim for muscular guys. Experience tells me things happen both ways, thus expectation from others too. Which is why i am not particular bout muscular guys, just not overly skinny would be great.. (okay, this i admit i am kind of meat lover =p)

Secondly, looks, he think i like weird looking guys, which is not true, they just look different from the general boring korean/japanese/taiwanese cuties, but doesnt mean they are not charming in their unique way! so anyway, it depends on personal preference.

Lastly, feminish. This is a matter of preference. Being gay, there is prob a feminish side in us, but just how obvious or outwardly expressing it differs among us. But i prefer guyish guy.. just my preference.. no offend intend, we r born the way we r and lets be proud of it. V

Okay, this is almost becoming an entry about guys i like if not for this last part. The reason i wrote this is beause as oppose to wat KH says bout being choosy, i am simply quite sure of guys i wud admire. I have tried with guys who are very into me but i just dun feel the kind of affection i had on my ex. No sexual desire, no increase heartbeat, no little silly thoughts of looking at the phone waiting for his call and yet writing one simple sms over like 100 times to make sure ur thoughts is clearly delivered even if you just want to say good nite. and when u dun hav such feelings, typically it end up that after a while, i have to apologize and tell them i cant, cause it just doesnt feel right. I feel bad to have to tell it, but i know it feels even worse on them, hope being raised and then fall so hard. There are people whom i ilike but dun like me, the same happens. I know how painful it is, but yet knowing how they feel being in that position, i know its neither their fault. It just not the right match...

If i am really sure of someone, i know i wont hesitate much, else no point wasting other's people time. We r depriving their right to be loved and treasured, putting them in a back-up or 'tentative' position.

Thus i am being choosy, because i know i dont want to hurt another person with my uncertainty and doubts, the same way i dont like to get that kind of feeling from others. Its too painful, to like someone and yet not getting the reciprocal feeling. Evwn worse when he is 'trying' . experience says, try stuffing ur size 10 feet into a size 8 shoe.. I rather go with someone i know i will love him loyally and wont move even when someone even more ideal comes by. cause i am happy with him and i have no bouts to sway me.

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U like someone, because every little thing he does is funny/interesting to u. His smile will always be charming. He snores will always be cute. When he cries u feel it is ur fault for not cheering him, when he is silly, u just wanna hug him and kiss his cheek. His eyes are beautiful not matter its big or small, his nose is pointed at just the nice angle, his lips are forever kissable. Everything just feel right. Just Right as it is.

You would never want to change a thing about him. Cause he is amazing the way he is...


I guess that's simply why certain songs are classics...