Lost - Almost

This entry was initially posted because I thought I lost this... But only to my relief that it was lying on my bed when I reach home (rather than on the cab seat)... What a shock I had, and it really made me so upset I was moody and wrote this. Soemtimes u really never learn to appreciate until u loose it, or at least u thought u loose it.

Here goes the original post...

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I was still counting how much it cost me in my trip back here in my previous entry.. only to realize that those seems nothing compare to a lost i just found out..

I was trying to tap my wallet on the mrt entrance but it shows error.. i thought must be all the embedded cards affecting one another as they sometimes happens but only to realize i didnt have any ezlink card in my wallet.. immediately my mind flash back to yesterday nite where i was clutching on to my card rushing home.. then change and gel my hair and rush out to my cab waiting outside... i might have held it on my hand at that pont but my minds keep flashing on my one hand holding my bag and the other holding to the change and then searching for my access card.. definitely no free hand for the ezlink...

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To others, it is just a ezlink with a half-side-look doraemon sticker.. but it really meant a lot.. and definitely a lost for good.. for a start the doraemon sticker is one that we found together in those shops that probably sell only seasonal items, so unlikely they will have it again... but even more meaningful than that was the card itself...

last year there was an upgrade to the whole commuter card system in Singapore. So everyone has to change their card to the new one and it is for free.. As usual these things dun bother me much until He told me about it.. even so i wasnt really in a hurry of doing it.. but he suggested we do it together which of course i am perfectly fine..

So one day, we were queueing at the ticketing counter to change our card.. after we both got our card, he took mine but then made a dissapointed sigh and say, "It is not in sequence.." I was puzzled, but after he explained, only did i realize he was actually being really romantic. He wanted us to change together so our card number will be in sequence. Though that didnt happen, but i felt really happy at that time. The thoughts thats wat really counts right? And thinking back now, he actually did, at one point really see us as "couple" or as "one" .. just too many things happen eventually that doubts keep growing until I actually forgotten he ever did..

but now.. it is gone... i lost a really valueble gift because of my stupid itenary that for the first time i am so careless with my belongings..

I wonder.. if this is telling me.. something is lost.. for good...

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That was what I wrote yesterday when I thought I lost it.. Again, seems to be a reminder that anything can happen, u might not even realize how it happen as u are so comfortably having it with you... but one little mistake u can loose something that you probably treasure a lot but forgotten about how much it meant cause u take it for granted it will be there forever...