I want to love him

林俊杰 - 我很想爱他


When I was listening through this album, this song somehow caught my intention. In fact it touches me, really deeply...

"...The sky is raining, and he is holding an umbrella beside me. However, i don't feel the bliss, because I saw the smile on his face was reluctant...

I want to love him, but my eyes are lying, should I hide it? so the relationship wouldn't become complicated?

I really want to love him, however, my senses are arguing against me, should I just give up? ... who can give me an answer?

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It seems that Love has thought us that, we both could never let go..."

I still remember earlier a friend has told me that a song is talking exactly what he feels. In fact, reading back my older post, I wrote that seems like in a broad sense, relationship is almost the same, when problem arises, you would easily relate it to any of this love songs. At least for the chinese ones... His encounter just shows that it really seems so...

When I heard this song, it just brings back the memory of how u wanted to love someone, yet it just keeps making you feeling more pain than happiness. All your senses are telling you that you are not truly happy. Yet you shut them all up, paralyse yourself and convinced that you both are still smiling. A smile you force onto your face to tell him you are Too, happy...

But even the writer has doubt, if backing out is the best solution? Who can tell? And love has thought us one thing, that letting go is the hardest thing u can do, when you are in a relationship, Samantha's theory, Half the time. Imagine 7 years... so, that would mean u spend a good 10 years on a fruitless relationship?

I guess the way the writer wrotes this, it seems that no one can say for sure what is the best way... Maybe, the very fact that he is still willing to fake a smile to tell you he is happy, shows he does have feeling, shows he is still concern... Maybe the very fact that you are willing to play ignorant, means you are willing to tolerate? And probably, backing out should be the last resort, at least when both had been serious in it...

The beautiful thing about love, I guess, is that it is a subjective question...

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This yea, I actually bought 2 albums, surprisingly. At this rate i probably will increase to 3 next year... (Gosh, I am buying orginal albums and making it as if it is a big deal, how corrupted our mind is.. =p )

Anyway, this is the second alum by JJ. Honestly, he might not be the most handsome but I am more than ready to marry someone of this kind of talent and can sing like this. Heart simply melts...


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